Small things make the biggest difference

From the last time I wrote, it was the first day of Spring 2013. Since then, I have to admit that I dropped yet another class. Throughout my academic journey, looking back at all the classes that I've taken and all the classes I failed to exceed, it pulls me back to a dark area in my past. I'm not an excellent student, but I know I can. Without any proof, how do I know that I can be an excellent student? Forcing myself into the medical field, I've really grown to love the science world. It's so ironic though, because it's been that one subject in my entire academic life that has never failed to challenge me. It has never been easy to understand principles and concepts, but once I have learned and understood, it's just all common sense. I hate that it takes me a long time to comprehend topics and worst when I forget about them. I do love focusing on Chemistry and Biology, but those subjects are too general and they have their own focuses that really picks me brain. I can't just be satisfied with the easy parts.

Well I know I'm still struggling after 5 years of "adult schooling", and my age just gets more embarrassing each year. I really want to focus on the good things though, without forgetting to challenge myself. I just wish that sometimes, I meet people who have the same issues as me.

First day of school: junior college edition

Ok. First day of school. I can't go on today without writing something down. I'm forcing myself to fully acknowledge my anticipations, hopes, and dreams.

1. What will my schedule for today be.
I got this! I've been planning this for a month now.
(Pandora on: Hyuna station: bubble pop)
Lmao. I just totally did a dance out. Whatever that is. Ok, we'll I've got my schedule down, all I need is to follow it! Prepare it and whatever. Also, a little elbow room doesn't hurt.

I'm so easily distracted.

2. School
However hard or difficult this semester will be, I really need to get used to the workload. Not only will it be harder once I transfer to Cal State Dominguez hill, but it will at least double the work. I need to be brave and just keep it in mind that these are prep courses. I need to prepare hard and do the work full force.

3. Remember why I'm doing this.
This is all very hard, I already know that. This is only a means to the ultimate goal! What is it I really want to achieve, my career. Why am I choosing this path? Science is intimidating and all, but at the end of the day, you love what you learn! It's really something you can be proud of and boast! You want to be a professional in that field. You want to be running it. Think of the name. Think of the money. Think of the stability. Everything in life is hard. Think of it this way: if you're not having a hard time, it means you're not doing all you can do.

Remember all this, and you'll be good.




- c'est moi, Janil

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